When I was young I imagined every squished bug a tally against my eternal soul. I think when I got older, and ran out of imagination, with my oversized watches and pokemon cards, went my decency.
I'm still scared of death. Scared of pain. Scared to lose anyone (even a fly). But there have been so many times in my life where fear confronted me, I grew a little used to being constantly afraid. I didn't realize what I was doing. Suddenly inconvience became too offensive, and everything became more important than my eternal soul.
